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Old 01-21-11, 04:44 AM   #1
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Hi to all that read and take the time respond. This is my first posting...

I don't know how to go forward anymore.

I can go weeks without leaving the house, not even stepping out to check the mail. I lost my job a year ago, and although I hated it, I feel useless without one now. If not for my very patient boyfriend I would be homeless, but even he has a limit.

The only place I want to be is in bed, my only respite are my dreams which I enjoy more than the waking world. I am ALWAYS tired. TV fills all hours not asleep. I don't seem to enjoy anything anymore, even food for the most part.

I've cut myself off from friends and family as I just don't want to talk to anyone. I'm lonely, but seem to prefer it to sharing or having to put on a face or fake it.

I do take Prozac (most of the time) and I'm not new to depression, but I've never been so stuck or felt so bad about myself. When I look for a job, all I can think is "Who would possibly want to hire me?" When I look at myself in a mirror all I can think is, "Who would like you?"

I think the worst part is that I've struggled with depression and self esteem my whole life, but this is even darker. And any light at the end of the tunnel is quickly doused by the realization that even when this passes- IF this passes- it will come again. It always does. So why bother?

How do you go forward knowing that? How do you get UN-stuck??
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Old 01-21-11, 10:21 AM   #2
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Hi sunshine and ttl welcomes you.

You are not alone and I’m definitely positive that you are not he only one who feels this way. Ask yourself what you really want in your life. Is it something that will make you happy? Is it in the bounds of your contentment? Is it the right thing to do? We all have our own questions to deal with….and the answer varies from one person to another. The important thing is for you to find your own satisfaction and gratification to the answers that you will find.

Who would possibly want to hire you? Well, for starters…those people (company, corporation, businesses, etc.. etc..) who would need your services and hard work. We sometimes forget that…a job is…well a job. It is a source of income to supplement our way of living. We get up and go to work in exchange for money. Money that we can use to make a better future (financially) for ourselves, as well as for others.

Don’t worry what others think of you. As long as you’re doing a good job and doing what you are getting paid to do…is all that matters.

As I have said or mentioned many times to other people before you…giving up is the easy part. There are million ways to say “I can’t”, “why bother”, “I’m worthless” but when everything else is said and done…we live and die with the choices we make.
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Old 01-22-11, 01:48 PM   #3
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If you are currently taking medication, and it is not working for you, then you need to talk about it with your doctor. He can either prescribe a stronger dosage, or prescribe a different drug that might help you.
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