How do you believe you're important and begin to build self-confidence when everyone you know is miles ahead of you in all aspects of life? Every time you look up trying to build even a small faith, you are immediately snowballed with stories of good grades, graduations, successful careers, glamorous social lives, romantic relationships, expensive vacations, marriages, families and kids of everyone you know.
I' am not jealous and am aware that life isn't meant to be fair. but I often wonder, why couldn't it have been me? I too would like to be a popular guy, be admired and sought for by others and enjoy the better things in life, instead of being an unattractive, socially awkward guy stuck at a low end job who struggles to make ends meet.
Is it possible to forget/erase everyone you know from memory and build self-confidence? I' have severe self hatred, depression, anxiety as a result of a long history of being talked down to and laughed at by others. I've tried talking to friends, therapy, medications and even withdrawing from social life to avoid pain but none have been successful. All attempts ended as costly failures.