The past 2 weekends I have felt really low. Today I was working and dealing with depression at the same time. It's difficult for me because quite often I'm the happy guy that always gives a smile and laughs at funny jokes whilst attempting to crack a few of my own.
Today I was trying to hide my feelings but sometimes even that is too difficult. I'm sure people will know something's bothering me and next time I see them it will hopefully it will be back to normal. But I hate the way I feel so distant from people, like I don't even dare telling them how shit I feel about everything sometimes because it could change there perception of me for the worse.
I have good reasons for feeling down this weekend such as physical pain, (unintentionally self inflicted) and some other stuff that has always made me feel crappy about myself.
I want to thank everyone who's involved on this site because this is my release when I feel crappy. I'm already feeling better after writing a few paragraphs.
I hope I feel better tomorrow.
Wow, long post, sorry....