Lucia, I'm glad your finding help, you are headed in the right direction. May I suggest, if you are not already doing this, write a journal. I started one in November, I find it really helpful, it allows me to get things off my heart and mind. It is like talking to someone without actually having anyone there, if that makes sense. Also remember, this will take time, it won't change over night. Keep posting and we can help one another. Take care.