Sometimes I see this lady, a psychic. She says things that often come true.
Last couple times I thought that info she gives me is not really useful, because my actions fall right into the course of the events how she predicted it, so even if it’s bad I can’t alter it or may be she is not giving it to me the way that I could alter it, may be she can’t.
For example. In September she told me a girl from another city would be driving to my house to stay with me. She said: the blond is ok, don’t take the dark one.
Fast forward December: a girl that works with us seasonally asked if she could stay with me for a while. She is blond and drove from a nearby city.
I took her, cause never had issues with her at work and psychic said blond was ok.
It turned out bad. The girl was not good, extremely toxic. Then her boyfriend came: he is darker skin btw. Whole situation was very negative, I eventually asked her to leave.
So now: did the psychic make a mistake by saying blond was ok? Or was she given that info that way just so I go through and take the girl living with me because it was a part of my destiny?
If she told me correct info, that girl was bad, I wouldn’t take her, thus the whole prediction wouldn’t come through and alter the coming events.
It brings me to a conclusion that the future is ore written for relatively major events. I can’t be given exact info on those so I can’t alter or even with the info they still find a way to happen.
I was in the middle of a project. The psychic lady asked how 2018 turned out for that project (she doesn’t even know what project). I told her it was a disaster. She told me to watch it, cause 2020 is showing same outcome at least in the first half of the year. I heard her. And still proceeded without consideration. Guess what, it went bad: 3 months of hard work went into flames.
Last year I was going on a long trip. I asked her if the trip was good, she said she saw me going, that’s it. I went and that trip brought many problems on me. If I didn’t go, the entire course of my life would have been very different from then. But was she not supposed to tell me that trip was bad? Or she didn’t see it? Because it was major event that was pre written in my destiny?
Now I am thinking, if the destiny is pre written, I might just as well lay down and die. I might be set up to suffer for the rest of my life, and nothing I can do to alter it...
It’s a weird feeling, hard to describe: you work, you read, you learn, you try, you jump, you cry, you meet new people, try new things...no matter what you do you can’t jump over your head: it’s pre written: if you are to suffer - you’ll suffer anyways, if you are to be poor or lonely: no matter what you do, it’s set by default and you can’t alter it.
It helps a little with self blaming and shaming: when I make a mistake or bad judgement call, I tend to be hard on myself. Now I am thinking: hey....it was supposed to go down this way, it’s not your responsibility in a sense, it was pre written and you are just following a script.