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Old 02-28-14, 10:36 AM   #1
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Ok, since I've been feeling a bit better, I thought I would tackle this issue with a clearer head.

Its sort of hard to be able to set all three apart since they are all intertwined at some point. But while I am working on getting better, there is a bit of a big obstacle in the way, I have a very hard time getting motivated to do things. I can think about it, tell myself im going to do it, and then I can't seem to get started. Then my mind starts running and thinking about how in the past, I would get motivated to do things, start them, give them my all and end up failing to achieve them for one reason or another.

I know that we mustn't define ourselves by what we do because its not our jobs,or the money or the stuff that we have that makes us who we are and to be honest I'm hoping to be able to let go of that ideal because I can see how toxic it can become, too much pride and all that. But at the immediate moment, its what is running through my head. I think back and feel worse because I couldn't keep my family together; I can't even stand them as of late, I spent an insane amount pulling all nighters in college just to find out I can't get even a decent full time job much less one in my area. I work in my crappy job just to see that when the paycheck comes in, it isn't even enough to be able to keep a decent stock of food in the fridge and so on.

I know that these things are not in my control. My family got torn apart because they didn't handle the situation as they should have, the job market utterly sucks and the costs of life are insanely high and getting worse. And yet all those things are like little pieces of a chain. Each one adds up and makes the chain heavier and heavier and it drags you down lower and tires you out faster than before.

But I want to break free of those chains. I'm already 26 and I don't want to spend the rest of my life dragging myself hoping that by some miracle, things will magically get better because I know that it doesn't work that way. I must make the magic happen.
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Do you have insurance? Most insurances cover one GP visit a year. They should be able to point you towards free or subsidized therapy places in the area. (I had no idea there were ones in my area, since I live in bumfuck nowhere, USA. But I had two options.)

With Medicaid I get 20 free counseling sessions a year, and pretty much unlimited GP visits and free prescriptions. (I would be dead without Medicaid, I'm sure.) I would look into seeing if you could get it in your state, especially since the expansion has rolled out in many US States.

There are other things you can do, but it's always harder to make yourself do them, like exercise.
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Unfortunately, I don't have insurance. Don't even have a med plan since if I signed up for one, the fees would take away what little money I had. I'm afraid I don't reside in the US (probably should have mentioned that before), I'm from the Caribbean.

I have looked into the free government offered psychological services. But a monthly visit where I have to spend 3-5 hours waiting just to be dispatched of so to speak in 10-15 min isn't really helpful. I also tried setting aside a bit of money from my paychecks to pay sessions but for $50 an hour which was the cheapest I could find just to have the doc tell me something obvious or even biased (been through 4 already) isn't very helpful.
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It's not your fault what happened to you in school. I would suggest you die to the past and die to the future. You don't know what the future holds, or you would be able to predict what you'll be thinking 30 seconds from now.

Do you support your family financially? If so, why?
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You can also contact professional places in the area and ask if they have interns you can schedule with. If it's anything like the US, to become a therapist many people have to go through several hours of internships. Before insurance that's how I got therapy. Of course this was a mixed bag, but largely good.
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It's not your fault what happened to you in school. I would suggest you die to the past and die to the future. You don't know what the future holds, or you would be able to predict what you'll be thinking 30 seconds from now.

Do you support your family financially? If so, why?
The reason is that whether I like it or not I'm stuck along for the ride. Since I don't make enough to move out, I have no choice but to take shelter under the roof of my parents. In it you have the water bill, light bill, etc. And if by one reason or another the bills are unable to be paid, we all suffer their effects. So my hand is forced to support them. Otherwise with no light we also lose food (what little there is) with no water, you can't use the shower among other things and so on. The domino effect is imminent if I don't pitch in, in order to prevent it.
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You can also contact professional places in the area and ask if they have interns you can schedule with. If it's anything like the US, to become a therapist many people have to go through several hours of internships. Before insurance that's how I got therapy. Of course this was a mixed bag, but largely good.
I would have to check if there's anything available here.
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My ex is a waiter and only makes about 400 a month. He rents a room. Is that a possibility?
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I've looked up rents but a studio (if your able to find one) goes about for that. Within a $300-$450 range and I make at best $300 a month. In gas alone I lose $40-$60 weekly so I wouldn't be able to rent a room.
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I sympathize with your plight. Years ago I faced similar situations that brought me to the same point. Carpe Diem, Seize the day and make it your own. In life, the things we attempt cannot be classified as failures, regardless of their outcome. Failure is for those that do not try. Non-success is only a reason to find something else positive in the day. Even the simplest things are important. You got out of bed. You heard a bird sing, smelled flowers, or saw waves crashing on the shore line. The beauty and tranquility of those things create peace in the mind and help ease the stress of the things you cannot control. Keep a "positives" journal for daily review. You write as many positive things in your day as you can think of. Be honest about them, some days it's more difficult. Push yourself to see if you can find one more than the day before. In time, finding the positive becomes more habit than concentrating on the negative.
Apply for that job you're afraid you won't get. If you don't, at least you tried. You could also look for a room mate possibly, or a type of rooming house (?) where you rent out the bedroom, have kitchen and bath privileges, but are only responsible for your bills.
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