Ive been a really happy guy my whole life, i mean im only 19, but ive never felt anything like this before. I feel like everything around me is slowly caving in and im gonna take the hit.
I just got a new manager at work about 2 months ago, since she started my work life has become increasingly bad. I had a bit of trouble getting to and from work due to my mum having to get a new car etc (I dont drive yet) and she took it very seriously and gave me a disciplinary so if i do it again i lose my job this is on my mind always ans she reminds me of it aswell taunts me almost. I dread going into work everyday. Im reluctant to get out of bed even if its my day off i like to be on my own, id love to say im good company but that'd be a lie. Also, one of my hobbies is very physically demanding but very rewarding (Martial Arts Tricking) and id started to progress really well but now ive just come to a holt and my performances are sloppy
i just dont know how to cope with it all its weird i cant sleep any more and i used to have a huge appetite but now i hardly eat at all even if i feel hungry i just feel sick if i try to eat sometimes. My friends find excuses not to see me or always have better things to do. It really upsets me i used to bend over backwards for them and im treated like shit.
Im losing myself and i have no idea what to do, im so close to my breaking point, i can feel it.