It has been roughly a year since I last posted here or done anything significant on this site. You guys really helped me out a lot last time and I was just reading some of my old threads.
I got my own place, it was a roller coaster of stressful events. But I am now out on my own and living by myself. I loved it at first but the excitement sort of died out and I am feeling like how I always did again. Thinking if I made the right choices is currently on my mind most of the time.
I am just feeling a little down at the moment, I think empty is the right word. I am unsure what to do so I can change how I feel.
I just feel like depression is my normal mood, I am never really happy at all. Sometimes I am a little hyper/crazy but nothing bad. I also have a heap of other bad qualities, I am very OCD with my place recently. I just lock myself away now and literally have no social interaction with anyone.
I hate to admit it but I have grown to hate my job, the one thing I never wanted to say to myself, and staying at home is even worse then being at work because its boring. I feel like I have no part in this world.
I was just thinking, do you guys think I should see a therapist? I don't really like taking any medication and would probably refuse to ever do so again. I am unsure if I would benefit from a therapist.
I may respond, I usually just lurk.
Thanks guys for reading, stay safe and have a good Christmas.