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Old 10-14-12, 01:43 PM   #1
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I wanted to make a long intro, but things are too complicated.

Basically, EDNOS (for about 13 years), anxiety and depression (10 years, recently significantly worse than it has been for a few years), history of sexual abuse (about 8 years ago), and I'm a social work student so I study rape/sexual abuse which seems to be overwhelming.

I have a lot of obligations and my health (PCOS, migraines, unexplained body pain) and mental health issues, combined with a lack of medical care (insurance is out of area and my campus clinic won't treat my PCOS, so I have to drive 5 hours to see a doctor which is not really doable with my schedule), make it REALLY hard to get things done. I feel like quitting everything and running away, but I don't want to leave and give up because I am trying to make a life with my boyfriend.

I have minimal family support and although I'm in individ couseling (every 2-3 weeks) and group counseling for ED (every week) and my boyfriend, I feel like I'm spiraling. I hate my body and who I am, I feel weak and inferior. I want to start over but clearly that isn't an option. I want to feel like my boyfriend's life isn't being ruined by me, even though he says he wants to be here and helps. We have a very strong relationship but seeing him upset and worried about me is almost as hard as everything else.

I don't know what I'm saying, but I figured this could only help.
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Old 10-14-12, 11:34 PM   #2
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hi, have u tried upping your counseling? every 2-3 weeks, doesn't seem very often. more often might help u get over the hump?
are u on any meds?
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I go to group once a week, but because I got to free counseling at my university, I have to work with what I can get. I'm still on my parents' insurance, so I can't go anywhere outside of their county (5 hours away) except my campus's clinic... I am considering seeing a psychiatrist, though. My university has an office on campus.

It's just hard because my PCOS/medical issues cause hormone problems, which I'm sre isn't helping, but I can't get treatment for it due to insurance issues.
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What's EDNOS?

I have PCOS too. I'm prescribed Metformin for it. Which also treats diabetes. Everytime I go the hospital and they see Metformin on my long list of medications they jump to the conclusion that I'm diabetic. I am now, but not when I started the Metformin. But somehow it does treat the PCOS, even though the cysts don't go away.

Are you able to get off your parents insurance so you can get your own in your area? Not sure how all that works.
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EDNOS is eating disorder not otherwise specified. Basically, I have traits of both anorexia and bulimia, but I don't purge and I'm not underweight (I'm actually obese on a doctor's scale). I binge and restrict and have a LOT of anxiety related to food and my body image.

I want to start taking Metformin, but I'm scared because I'll have to alter my diet a bit (eating ANYTHING sweet/carby on Metformin makes me SO SICK). This complicates my eating disorder, as you may be able to tell.

My SO has insurance in the area, but we'd have to get married which we're not ready to do yet. I wanted to buy my own insurance but I'd have to take out a loan for the cheapest one (I make about $600 a month), and it still doesn't cover any specialists - only family doctors. I'm just trying to hold out until I graduate and get a full time job or get married.
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i don't have insurance either. i try to go to places with sliding scales. hospitals sometimes have them, they charge less if your income is small. have you tried to find anything like that?
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