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Old 09-02-18, 12:24 AM   #1
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My mind says die, my heart says live
My mind thinks free, my heart is held captive
By bullshit people that still hold a piece
I'll be a goner before I'll ever retrieve
All of the fractions of all the elements
That made me me, and gave me relevance
I watched them all slip down a slippery slope
Along with my pain, but also my hope
Of living the best life i possibly could
I dream of mansions but I'm in the hood
I'm almost where I need to be
But today I feel like I'm stung like a bee
With poison on the tip of the stinger
I try to live life right but I'm stuck in the ringer
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Old 09-02-18, 02:04 AM   #2
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When I was younger I had a secret death wish
Secretly hoping to meet my death from those I associated with
But like cream I rose to the top to topple their judgements
Got more respect than I was expecting with those I ran with
We all got older and separated into our own lives
Or maybe I was just excluded because they felt i was all lies
I didn't get the death that i wanted, it wasn't physical
I survived the bullshit and ended up with a brain that became fickle
My joy and spirit died, faked being good then and still do now
I quit drinking spirits and i even put my blunt down now
Drugs cant mask the fact that my mind was trapped underground
I landed roughly on jagged rocks from my lovely high
Wondering how did i end up such a nice, miserable, and lonely guy? (All at the same time)
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