This is a discussion on unravel me. within the Bipolar forums, part of the Mental and Physical Health category; brokenheartdisease and thatone guy
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K so. I got robbed last night. Low and behold my meds were in my bag. Id ss card money phone all gone. until today. My boyfriend got my phone, wallet, and two medications back from the guy who bought it of a crack head.
I got robbed they said they had a gun there were two of them. Walking outside today I nearly had an anxiety attack because a woman was walking behind me. I was grabbed from behind. And them mother fuckers got me. My house keys were in the bag, so the locksmith just left.
My boyfriend is so pissed. He had To drive all the way here to pay so much for my phone and shit.
I am happy I have my sleeping pill.
Bad day. Totally emotionally destroyed. My boyfriend (who blames me for walking at night in a terrible city) dropped me of flowers, stayed two minutes to say sorry for what I went thru but put blame on me and left. I just wanted him to hold me or be with me, not leave me of all things. I couldn't believe he actually left me. Now he has me block from callin or texting. my heart hurts so bad. Wouldn't even smoke a bowl with me. Im obviously on the backburner.
I write in here because you don't know me to see me. This boyfriend of mine fits wonderful things for me beyond what normal money can buy. But after an hour of explaining why I've ruined him and fucked up everything weve done also how I offer nothing have offered nothing an nothing but a head ache im going to give him a stroke. This is from 9am still fighting now. Bc my in her 90s grandmother said I went to the store at 11 and 12 at night. Ok I know I went once for smokes probably 11 definitely not 12. Well he left me here that was the icing on the cake today. I plead for him to stop when he won't let me talk and just tell me forever how im a fuck up and everything is my fault. I just want to be with him so badly for compassion and comfort im do fuckin sad. "I love you but you ruined my life" then leaves me. I hate my existence.