Welcome to the forum. I think you will find that many of us feel the same way you do. You are definitely not alone. I just recently went through a two month depressive state where I lost motivation at the same time. Didn't even feel like there was a reason to get up each morning. Luckily my psychiatrist was able to move my appointment up and started me on Wellbutrin. That made a world of difference to me!
Sometimes just reminding yourself that it will pass helps to allow your mind to get over the guilt that comes along with it. Do you currently have a psychiatrist or therapist?
Suffer from Depression and Bipolar Type II
Currently taking: Fluoxetine, Bupropion, Risperidone, Depakote, and Clonazapem
Favorite Quote: Faith and reason are like two wings on which the human spirit rises to the contemplation of truth