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Old 04-14-12, 09:38 AM   #1
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Default i failed in every relationship because i have a bipolar

well..that's pretty much sum up everything.

i failed at everything because i stuck to a mental disease.
no wonder i felt my existence is so strange. should i have to seek medical professional for this?
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Old 04-14-12, 11:02 AM   #2
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Hi! Definitely go and seek medical advice. Bipolar is one of the easiest mental illnesses to treat but the trick is to keep on with the meds and see your doctor regularly. Left untreated the bipolar will only get worse over the years. YES, go and get professional advice!!!
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I know what you mean. All of my relationships have fucked up too cos I have depression and anxiety. I definitely think you should seek medical help. I'm about to go through counselling again (I hate it) because I don't want it to ruin my next relationship.
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I think this highlights an important thing: that women or men, the opposite sex, dont like to be involved with someone if they have a problem/issue.

very low blow. the whole point on a relationship is to SUPPORT your other partner if they are going through bad times. its not all "happy pills" and "drink". that is NOT what a relationship is.
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You are exactly right firehawk. It seems a lot of people just want an 'easy run'. Sure, i may have a mental illness...but I don't come with any other baggage (e.g. criminal history, kids, ex husband, I'm in a good career and can support myself financially, etc etc.).

But it appears that these things don't matter cos I'm just a leper cos I have a mental illness. Shits me. There could be far worse problems in a relationship. Like you said, with the right support, that can help so much.
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Old 04-15-12, 09:23 AM   #6
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yes get a therapist of some sort. I have never been diagnosed with anything, but i take a pill thats used for bipolar. I am on lowest dose, one pill yet i had one of the worst breakdowns imaginable at the tender age of 17. I was an exception normally people with neaurosis are easier to treat

I still need my meds , until i recover. I was never given a chance to relax and take timeout. I have every faith i won't need any medication in the near future once i am happy and settled. DONT let anyone convince you its a lifelong curse. Its not diabetes although similar.

There are countless articles to prove people grow out of bipolar.

Please dont despair x x
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owing to this disease, i lost my weight. the depression i've got is like a cancer to me.i became thinner and thinner years by years.and you're right,i think that my bipolar became exacerbating.the suicidal thought always linger in my mind even when i'm doing my work.

u can imagine how scrawny i am when my height is 6'0 but my weight is merely 54kg. in my country,very rare men have 6'0 height, but i feel so small when i walk out home although i know for the first place that i'm taller than anyone i know.

all this while, i repressed my feeling telling myself that i'm ok.i deny the very fact that i am depressed and mentally sick.u know, people are still stigmatizing emotionally unstable people as psycho.i realized that i've been having a major depressive disorder since i lost my father when i was 9 and my grandpa 6 months later.i've always got bullied in school. i didn't play out like any normal kids but i just stayed away from them and played alone.pathetic right?

ever since my father's death, everything seemed taken away from me. everything that used to be normal appeared to be so strange. i lost everything when he was gone.confidence, happiness everything.i felt that i am a rare creation of God's mistakes.i know what i'm saying is wrong but that is how i feel.

too much bitterness to be spoken here.i want to be appeared ok in front of people that i fake my smile,i make fool out of myself.quite numerous time my friend found me weird because i'm over excited.this is when my mania attacked.i appeared very outgoing and cherish but when i be home, alone,i cried because i hate myself for being such a fake.
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its not pathetic, was just a stage, sometimes when you have a lot of pain to deal with you unconsciously choose to be alone, its human nature. I was depressed as youngster and progressed as teen to mania.
I know all about the stigma, its forced me to move away and start again. I was in hospital and my own family didnt hesitate to tell people and others just found out. I was always paranoid about who might know and five years on im still not at peace but there are a hanfdul of people out there who will understand. I pulled through and proved myself.
The mania is draining, and a sedative can keep it at bay. And yeah the side effecs are horrific, but just to start. I can t emphasise enough how you need to stick to taking Medication and wean off slowly, avoiding alcohol(in small doses not completely), sleeping/rest and eating right its as simple and hard as that. Food plays a huge role in mental health, you have to eat, get some help in, read up on nutrition. Drink Protein shakes, soups with loads of vegetables build yourself back up.

Suffering makes you a better person in the long run. Dont give up x x
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i was suffering for ten horrific years.i tried to convince myself that "ooo..may be i just have a rapid metabolism system",however, i didn't see it to the rest of my family. they were growing normal and lean.i took many supplement and wasted a lot of money for that and in the end, when my depression came to attack, i just loss my appetite. it took me for 10 years to realise that depression has eaten my body away.

i just don't have any appetite to eat.my soul had lost somewhere from my body.now i'm like a walking zombie.
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