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Old 09-15-11, 08:38 AM   #1
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After a few years of suspicion on my side I've finally gotten to know that I'm diagnosed with Bipolar (unspecified)... It didn't surprise me at all, I've always knew something was wrong and the fact that no SSRI worked but only seemed to make things worse was a big tip.
I have longer periods of depression (months, years) and short but intense hypomanic episodes. Both do me harm though.
The depressions make me suicidal.
The hypomanic episodes mostly makes me too impulsive and I spend all my money and I can't keep up with my own thoughts etc... That isn't that bad, what's worse is the sudden drops I get from being hypomanic to very depressed and high anxiety levels. Going from being very happy and hyper to a huge amount of anxiety is the worst thing in my opinion... I can't keep up.

I used to hurt myself quite a lot.
I haven't hurt myself regularly in almost 3 years I think. Well, haven't cut reguraly anyway. Haven't cut myself in over a year I think. I've had a few bouts of eating disorders. Not too serious, but still, it does impact my life heavily. It still does. And how could it not impact my mood? Of course I feel terrible when looking into the mirror.
Another way I hurt myself to keep the anxiety in check was the drinking. Being 15-16 and having a hard time to stop drinking... It's not fun.
I'm 18 now and so I'm legally allowed to drink alcohol, that doesn't help much since I get cravings. I'm trying to keep myself under control and not drink excessivly and eat properly.

What I'm trying to get at is that I can't handle stress(it triggers episodes quite easily) and that I wonder if you have any tips for me?
I'm in uni and it's vital that I get through it. I've worked so hard to get here, it can't all go to waste now...
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this sounds like me so much.
ive been dealing with episodes for about 3-4 years now.
last self harmed: 4 days ago.
today, ive been HYPER, like proper bouncing off the walls, and then in the last ten minutes ive crashed, so i ended up on here. but i just cant be bothered to do anything, i doubt ill be able to get out of bed for college in the morning. i just want to cry and its horrible.
i treat the people around me like crap when im like this and i just dont understand things, ill sit in a lecture and i just cant consentrate - its almost as if the teacher is talking a different language. Its awful and im really struggling at the moment.

i dont know how that will help you but i just needed to get all that out in the open,
as for the stress thing, i split my time 60/40 and spend 60% of my time with my friends and boyfriend and the rest on my college work, it tends to make it feel a lot easier.
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Old 09-16-11, 08:49 AM   #3
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hi.
well this is just a common problem.
It takes training to deal with this but its more than possible.

u see we can influence how we feel.
For example smth good happens. Like I meet this cute guy and he likes me and I like him too. Its like I took a little drug and I am on a high. I can nurture this “high” feeling by concentrating fully on this positive thing. And then it can end badly. Because u cant be on a high forever, because maybe he doesn’t like me that much and then I will pass from euphoria to depression.

The goal is to be moderate with evthg. To say thanks to life for this positive moment but to become alert as positive stress is stress too, to TAKE A STEP BACK and “to return to urself”, to stay abstinent from taking this drug, u know?

And then u become in control of ur feelings again, it feels great – this serenity and peace of mind, again o belong to urself and don’t depend on anything. And this, I can tell u, is better than any drug.

it doesnt mean i dont date or smth. of course i am. but dating when u are needy and dependent on this high- is 1 thing. dating when u are calm and cool - is totally different.

So u see, before I used to pray on these moments of high – they were evthg to me. Now I become alert. Serenity and peace are much more important and I don’t get carried away. And its lovely.

Also u are so lucky because there are alcolics anonymous for u where u can go and get for free peace and clarity and support and communication. This is what keeps anxiety in check.

And don’t be worried about the stigma “alcoholic”. I had problems with alcohol a long time ago and I am allowed to be there. And I go sometimes because the groups of alcolholics are the coolest ones as they are the first 12step programmes that ever were. And u get so much peace and serenity- its fantastic.

I used to deal with my problems by overeating, drinking ( along time ago), smoking, having sex with whoever, being needy but its awesome when u find other tools – these groups, sport (i totally forget myself and thats what is needed- to stop the thinking process), walking, doing the dishes ))) etc…

Life is not that hard actually. There are tools that can help and u can live normally. Good luck.
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I forgot to mention that I was in DBT-group for a year which is supposed to give you tools... And it works a bit. But it can't help me with the highs and absolutely lows, it can only help me with not hurting myself and stuff like that. I've worked sooo hard for years with DBT and "the golden way" and being in the moment. Training myself on not to dwell on the past nor worry too much about the future. To not worry about things that I can't control.
Yes, it helps me with the drinking and things like that.
But it doesn't help with the mood swings. It can't cure a chronic disorder.
If you're too low it's pretty much impossible to use these tools...
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what is DBT?
have u tried alcoholics anonymous and their 12 step program?
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what is DBT?
have u tried alcoholics anonymous and their 12 step program?
Dialectic behavioral therapy, a more buddhistic version of KBT.
No I haven't...
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