I've had an absolutely horrible week since I crashed down into a depression. I have bipolar 2. I keep on falling and I can't stop... I can't focus on anything... I'm terrified of being alone... my ex texted me and basically wished I was dead... I keep rereading her words in my head... the same day my ex sent me her... well-wishes... things went to hell between me and a new chick I met... the new chick hasn't talked to me for a week because I made a joke about her not being able to grab lunch. All I wanted was to have lunch... I missed her but I didn't want her to see that so I made a joke and now that joke has me all alone... I just can't fucking do the past week and today hasn't been any better... I'm still crashing hard.

bummer. but being bipolar, we can always count on crap being temporary. when things get like this for me, and it seems i can't do or say anything without offending someone, i just tell everyone i'm on communication blackout, it's a bipolar thing and i will be back in touch. honesty..harsh but hey at least i warn them now :)
seriously, i hope the rest of the year goes better for you.

Good point, roller coaster and all that. Thank you for getting me to laugh a little. I like that blackout idea though, do you just straight say "hey bipolar communication blackout time" in a text? Thank you and I hope the rest of this year and the next are good to you too

sorry Brokenknight, i guess you best not take my advice about the food fight.

i'm sorry

yes i actually do say " going on a communication blackout...it's a bipolar thing" keeps the phone from ringing and and me feeling guilty for not answering it. it lets them know it's not them and it helps me be quiet. still at first people would try to help me snap out of it...but now i think they are getting used to it. ( even though there are a few who still get a little miffed, but hey, i warned them!) sometimes just being still and quiet is like not being depressed or manic..or "normal"..just taking a break. if that makes sense.

I absolutely love that idea, thank you tessamess

What are you talking about, simlrmind?

you're welcome :) it will get better :)