I am a 33 year old female, married with a 9 month old baby. I have suffered from pretty severe depression all my life and had a particular bad bout in the last few months with PND.
Anyway, I have managed to get my mood through the day in control, its not perfect but ok, using vitamins and so on.
However, I wake every morning early with my heart beating fast, can't breathe, having the worst suicidal thoughts going through my mind. I picture a future in which everything is bad, the worst things happen and I just want out. I feel so sad and I can't shake off the feeling. I want to sleep more as I am so tired but the anxiety wakes me up. I feel like life is one long torture at the moment. I have a baby so I should be happy but I just feel more useless and dead than ever.
Does anyone else experience morning anxiety/panic? How do you control it?