First off, even if you aren't the most attractive person in the world, I'm pretty safe in saying that there are thousands, if not more, of people out there far uglier than you are.
Second, I understand what it's like to feel super-self-conscious. If your appearance is bothering you, staying in your room and dwelling upon how much you loathe yourself is only going to make your problem worse, both physically and emotionally. So, what I recommend is getting a makeover! :P
You don't have to be embarrassed about it, either. Be confident, and believe in yourself! I guarantee that you'll feel way more comfortable in public if you find yourself more physically appealing. I know that your looks aren't the base of your problems, but I can tell that they're obstructing a more positive outlook on life, among other things. After all, confidence is the key to any social situation. Besides, 95% of your concerns regarding what other people think about you are totally in your head. Just remember that when you're feeling awkward. I don't know anyone who goes around whispering shallow comments about strangers whom they see walking down the street. Even if there are a couple people that you encounter that are like that, they're not even worth stressing yourself out over.
Still, it sounds like you isolated yourself a lot while you were a kid. I used to do that a ton, too. So, to an extent, I understand what you mean. Also, you shouldn't feel badly about telling these things to your parents. It's their job to listen to you and help you through hardships, even if you're not a child anymore. It's only natural that you're stressed out. You're trying to become independent, which is great, but there's a lot of stress that goes along with that. I'm gonna be totally honest with you: Your brother is wrong. Don't let him guilt trip you about going to your parents for help. I mean it. That's what parents are for. I'm sure that this is hard on all of you, but you'll pull through it.
Hang in there, HM. You're gonna be okay. You had the courage to confess the problems you've been facing, and I respect you for that. I have faith in you! :)
Last edited by Jolteon; 09-05-09 at 09:36 PM.