My only issue is that I'm really hesitant to take medication for my anxiety. I haven't been without my symptoms since I was in, like, third grade. What if, when the medicine takes effect, the output is a totally different person? I can't imagine thinking about my life, as I so often do, and not feeling depressed over it. I have such a low self-esteem, it doesn't seem feasible for me. It's not like I can just ask if anyone else takes it, because I may respond differently. I've been really close, so what if I lose control and hurt someone? I'm petrified of the thought.
If that happens, I'm no better than my dad, and he's practically the source of all this! Agh, what do I do?