Feeling really bad right now, like I only should be in a mental hospital. I can't sit and focus and do work anymore (design, web editing). Can't focus on the computer. Parents are yelling at me, telling me I have to get a full time job. Duh. I know I do, but it seems like there are all these obstacles and even if I overcome one tiny pebble I get thrown back by a boulder. Just realized that I get really anxious when thinking about applying, when applying, reading emails, job descriptions, not to mention interviews. Don't know what I do good, don't know what I want in a job (other than stability and not be afraid of getting laid off). Paranoid, all the time in regards to work. I used to be productive, now I can barely do one thing all day. So confused, upset, afraid I'm never going to get better.