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Old 01-17-09, 04:55 PM   #1
 
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I seem to be more anxious about anything and everything than ever before. I have been having panic attacks over the last few years that have increased and I have suffred from claustrophobia before, expecially in crowded closed in places, now I'm starting to feel aggrophobic and noticed it is less bad if I go out when it is dark, maybe because of less people and darkness makes spaces look less big I don't know. This has developed especially over the last month and have not been going out in daylight yes this year. I'm finding a mostly unsympathetic attitude to this, even from doctors who mostly tell me to relax.
I've been suffering from clinical depression for just over a year now, first I gave into it then I fought it, now I just feel incapable of anything, my confidence has nose dived and I seem to over-react to everything, hyper sensitive, paranoid...
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Old 01-17-09, 05:11 PM   #2
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Aw. -hugs- I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. (I know, that doesn't cure anything, but I really am.) Maybe if you tried going out during the daytime with a friend? I'm not really sure what aggrophobic is, but from what you've written, does it have something to do with not wanting to be around people? I don't know - I'm not really sure what to say.
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Old 01-17-09, 05:21 PM   #3
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I can relate to the not wanting to be around crowds! I struggle every day with it, my boyfriend is getting really upset with me because I don't want to go anywhere.
Have you seen a doc?
I'm on some meds and still can't seem to want to get out.
I'm sorry your going through this, it is quite debilitating
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Thanks. Well it's supposed to be fear of open spaces I think, but I feel uncomfortable around people and highly anxious when I go out, pains in chest, hyperventilating, difficulty concentrating, dizzy, confused. I'm turning into a couch potato, sleep a lot when I can get off to sleep which gets harder and harder the meds I'm on seem to make it hard to wake up and don't feel much reason to wake up anyway. I get suicidal thoughts and tried an overdose but I couldn't even get that right and just fell asleep. I don't feel the doctors or anyone takes me seriously, I feel like a waste of space. My mum is an alcoholic, my brother suffers from long time or term depression he put down the phone on me when I called him about the overdose. I feel less and less enthusiasm about anything. I haven't got a friend to go out with
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I'm finding a mostly unsympathetic attitude to this, even from doctors who mostly tell me to relax.
are these regular doctors or therapists? you may want to try finding other doctors if these aren't helping you.
sorry you feel so anxious.
do u live with anyone? are you lonely staying in?
i hate being stuck home myself
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yes am married, he goes out most of the time, always has, he doesn't like staying in and he's from a different culture and we're muslim so he goes off with the guys mostly to coffee shops. I've noticed total non understanding from him and his in laws, I'm not sure they recognise depression in his country.
Plus many muslims start talking haram haram haram if you say anything about suicidal thoughts, or they tell you to pray and everything will be rosy and I'm being attacked by shayton. Sorry not finding it terribly comforting.
I've seen normal doctors, a psychiatric nurse and what I assume to be a trainee councillor.
I am also trying to find out if I am suffering from manic depression/bipolar because been in mood swings all my life and can get quite manic and obsessional. I don't know how to though.
I do get lonely yes and wish husband stayed home more but it's just not his nature to stay in, sometimes I want company sometimes I don't want to be around people. I'd love a hug and to be mothered but my mum is sick. I've got verbal abuse from several sources recently and just can't handle it just take more pills.
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well, i'm not muslim, but i was part of a religious group & got a lot of grief for being depressed. i was just supposed to pull myself up & pray it away & get better.

oh, what i meant by "regular doctors" was just medical doctors who aren't trained in psychiatry, like the kind you go to for a physical illness (sorry if i wasn't clear) what kind of doctors are they?

i get so lonely when my hubby goes out to work, i'm stuck home.

sounds like you have a lot to deal with, especially with your mother sick.
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I mean g.ps general practitioners. Well one of them, that I was seeing in the beginning was supposeed to have had some training, I found him very unhelpful and seemed to look down his nose at me. When I said not liking the groggyness and semi coma the tablets gave me, he said take them earlier, well I've had two types of anti-depressant so far and it makes no difference what time they're taken, I'm sure they are built up in the blood stream anyway, they say to take them for so long before you will feel any difference. Also he's made some sexist comments and made me cry a few times Some of the female doctors seem nicer. It's a practise with many doctors, can't always get who you want. I'm waiting for therapy sesions, but I'm not sure if they are trained therapists. It's a charity and I think I may have been referred to them because of that it won't cost them any money will it?!

Oh and facing homelessness is a contributing factor. Not only the uncertanty but feel like being in limbo, it's a home that's not a home.

My mum is partly sick because of smoking and drinking, she won't give up either even though they have given her serious health problems. I really want to go visit, but I don't think I can handle it. I had an abusive phone call and letter from her before and just after christmas, some of it quite rascist. I had major panic attacks and wept for days. This week I've had abuse from tow other parties and I just can't handle it
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wow, you've got a lot going on. :(
strawbean posted some good links in the therapy section about how to find good affordable therapy, i will bump it up for you, look for it, OK?
((((hugs)))) sorry all this is happening
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thanks especially for hugs
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