I've never done this, but tonight it horrible and I just thought that maybe writing everything down would help. I've dealt with depression for a very long time, but this anxiety is new. I had this dream that my girlfriend died right I front of me, and there was nothing I could do to save her. I woke up drenched in sweat and tears. It was too real. I love her more than anything, I wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for her, she is the single most important woman in my life. My mind went nuts, it ran every possible worst case scenario imaginable and it hasn't stopped. If she were to die, I don't think I could go on. Writing this I feel cliché but it's really true. I just can't get this thought out of my head and it's killing me. I can't stop crying. All the thought about death is kind of making me want to die, however I'm not suicidal. I honestly don't know what to do, my thoughts just control me right now and I can't stop them. I keep everything very pent up inside and even writing this is big for me. How do I stop thinking this?