I don't know what this is, maybe someone can help (and maybe some day I will get the courage to actually be truthful with a doctor too)
So sometimes, when I am not focusing on something (playing games, strolling through forums, etc.) and I get those few moments to think to myself, I get freaked out over nothing.
Like an example:
I laughed funny the other day in front of some co-workers and when I reflected later with no distractions around me, my breathing got a little heavier, my heart pounded just a little faster (not huge changes, just subtle) and all I could do was focus on how stupid it was and how they must all think I am a flake or not real with them (never thoughts of "hope they don't feel that way" I just KNOW that must think those things. And then I look back on the little episode and think of how silly it was to feel that way, but then if I focus on how I felt that way, it happens again.
I literally cannot allow myself just time to myself without something like this happening, and it's all over stupid stuff, and sometimes it happens for NO reason such as I just know I did something stupid, and I don't know what- but knowing me, I must have done it.
Anxiety? Paranoia? I dunno. I can't be the only person this happens to, right? (cause sometimes it feels that way).