anyway... my anxiety is extremely high today. had something "not go perfectly" today, and usually when that happens my mind won't stop racing. i can thank my mother for this, b/c when things weren't perfect for her there'd be hell to pay.
so, yeah, due to someone's incompetence, i'm worried and can't stop thinking about whether it will work out okay or not. and it's something so ridiculously small and pointless, but it's like my mind doesn't know what else to do but obsess over it. i'm tired of it. i've been grinding my teeth so badly that i've actually worn down my retainer/plate that i wear at night (i've had it over a decade and have worn it every night since i've had my braces off. i can't sleep without it because i grind my teeth in my sleep). i just don't know how to relax. it's driving me fucking insane.