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I feel so much safer when I'm alone. My physical, emotional, and psychological safety is my top priority. Anyone else?

i am a typical loner..loners are loners,but i never feel lonely
the safety of being alone is like feeling freedom...
i live my own life,distract myself and just feel fine
nobody disturbs me..and i disturb no one either..
staying away from people is maybe not so easy as we think...
i can..because i do not have to go out to earn my buck,no job,no daily commute..
on top of that..my house is a loners paradise..no neighbours on one side?
not too much trouble with my neighbours on my left side..they leave me alone..
if i go out for a gig..i turn into a chameleon and know how to act and socialise..
in fact i do everything in moderation,booze,sex,internet addiction...
i like it that way..for people who have an aversion of being around people it becomes bit more difficult...sometimes we are forced into situations we do not really like...then we cope by posing...but the real loner..is different...
and knows how to act..i do not like to have too many people around me who bother me with silly questions,remarks..
i had enough shit in the past wih these kind of situations..point is..I know how to cope...
we can ignore or avoid..in both cases the one who does that..is in fact a winner..

You usually know the right thing to say, tiger.

SG, I can totally relate.

Lately, Ive been thinking, there are only 2 roles, while interacting with others: wicked manipulator, or someone's prey/victim. I don't like either of them :( But I am tired of being victim all the time.

May be it's time to switch?! Not sure I am capable though. Some people are just not wired to be assholes.

I don't want to burst your bubble, but I don't think you should be a bitch. I don't think bitches and assholes are very happy people. I think you can be happy prey if you know what to expect and therefore aren't surprised. But best to avoid.

Or if you're the social type, you can give them a chance and once they get on your bad side, write them off. Personally, I think the less people you interact with, the less likelihood of something going down.

I think I will give people a chance and be social. But once they cross me in the slightest, they're out.

Yeeeah no. I forgot I have a bone to pick with the larger society (sexism is more accepted than racism). So I'll stick to the original plan.

Apparently I have attachment trauma. I let people ride on my back for too long, not able to set the boundaries, until they are pushed to the limit and that's when everything goes down.

I don't know what to do at this point. I need some money to get a therapist. The time is going by, I am getting old, not getting anything done.

May be will stay private for a minute. Enjoy my loneliness...

I love thinking. It's interesting, stimulating, and minimalistic. I also enjoy keeping busy. I would totally stick to data entry/admin roles for life were it not for automation. I'll investigate by calling my cousin who's a programmer.

I think I'll interact and just avoid a group of people who will remain nameless, who have often tried to antagonize me or bait me into getting angry. The human brain looks for patterns.

So it turns out I wasn't in trouble. I haven't seen the CEO since he saw me browsing the web (which I did again yesterday ha) and the office was in fact closed on MLK Day.

Feeling at peace.