I have been working on my depression and anxiety issues sucessfully for about a month now but the past two days i did something very difficult... i returned to the place of my breakdown in order to finish up class exams from last semester.
The first day was not so bad but then i started studying hard core for my physics exam and before I knew it i was falling back into pushing my self too hard and stressing myself out by worrying. I was able to break out of it by going for a walk but the next day when i actually took exams I started worrying about what I am supposed to do about this semester. I tried to occupy myself with activities and ended up only making myself more anxious with frenzied activity. I tried to sell a book and when they told me the class was using a new edition i lost it. i felt the depression creeping in and then knocking me to the ground suddenly. I kept yellling at myself to stop doing it but it isnt' that easy to stop. the depression stayed with me the whole rest of the afternoon as i took exams and headed back home. when i reached home it momentailrly got better when i talked with a friend. the friend however wanted me to stay in my classes for this semester and try to at least finish my associates but i am not sure that is possible. i again went into frenzied activity trying to figure out how to complete this degree when what i have doens't fit into any program at that school. I ended up going to the gym and exercising. it put me at peace --- finally. however i am still unsure what i want or need to do. i have lots of trouble knowing what i want instead of following what other people telll me to do.
Can anyone relate???