Still new here. I was wondering, does anybody know what its called when you feel trapped or caged, and it gives them these nervous breakdowns or throws them into fits of anxiety? I dunno if its natural, but is it fixable? Does talking about it help, or anything else? Just wondering.
I mean, lately ive been so panicky, and i get anxiety shocks over the littlest of things. I just wanna be out of everything, so i kinda tune out, ignoring my parents and just trying to finish everything i have to do. Just feel extremely trapped in everything, including the things i love. Like, i love my horses, i love writing, and i love my friends, but whenever i feel like i have to do something like e-mail my friends, call the horse boarder, or write a chapter, i get all sick and overloaded, then i panic. Even my family and school work. Maybe its stress, but ive never had any problems with stress in my life, so i dunno wat its like.
I recently moved to Mexico, so i have a thousand e-mails to answer from all my friends, i still need to send my best friend a b-day present, i need to call my horse-boarder at least once a week to check on my babies, i have to keep studying [which takes a really long time], takiing breaks to eat and walk the dogs, keeping up with my photography hobby, writing and rewriting, come up with a cleaner plot, draw, try to take up painting again, do chores, quiet time, mess around on the computer to try and calm myself down, and to top it all off, im trying to make friends and the only people i know down here are the people i never want to see again. Recently its all been getting to me, i cant keep concentrated, and when i try to remember everything i need to do, i freeze up and panic/go into anxiety pangs. Depressions been bothering me a lot too. At first i just thought it was just me missing my babies, the snow, my home and friends, but its been persisting. Ive never delt with any sort of stress before either, so i dunno how to help it other than praying. But sometimes i feel obligated or trapped to do that too, even though it really helpts me.
I dont talk to anybody about these things at all, i dont tell even my best friends a lot of things. As much as i love them, its so hard keeping up with supporting them back when theyre going through problems like depression too. I feel guilty talking to them bout my problems, cause thats all i seem to do. It makes me feel like a failure as a friend. And when i snap and get upset with my family, i feel like a failure as a kid and Christian.
None of my problems are major, or from major problems, i just feel so constricted i want to scream 247 and then i go into fits of depression. Usually im a reallly happy person, so its pretty unnatural.
Food is kinda harsh too. I dont want to go into an unhealthy eating spurts, but its really hard to regulate it evenly. I've been eating tons of food until im really unhealthily stuffed for a day or so, then i stop eating and excersize, going out and exploring or going on walks. I didnt notice it for a long time, but its a bit more pronounced now. I have a few more different problems, but i dont really feel like talking about them. Are they all related or am i just panicking with all this change and stuff? Id really like some advice if u got time.