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Old 04-03-11, 06:19 AM   #1
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Hi, I'm new here. I am 24 years old and I just recently quit my job as a veterinary technician. I have a degree in biology and I thought that I wanted to spend my life working with animals in some capacity, but it turns out that work is too physically demanding for me. I have decided that I want to become a teacher and I just got hired to be a substitute teacher (I start monday) but I am having doubts and freaking out and I was having a bit of a panic attack before I decided I should get online and ask for advice. I thought that teaching would be a good job choice for me because I want to contribute something to society and I am actually quite creative so I feel I might be good at it, but I am also somewhat shy and my anxiety has just been getting worse with age. I know the logical thing is to just try out the substitute teaching and give it a chance, but my anxiety level is so high at this moment that I am afraid I might have a nervous break down on my first day. I am not sure why I have all of a sudden started to feel so terrified, but that is simply the way anxiety works for me. I can feel perfectly at ease in a situation and then all of a sudden I am having a panic attack. I am just feeling worthless and hopeless about my life because if this teaching thing doesnt work out then I have no idea what I am going to do with myself, and I already feel like a complete failure at life and I haven't even give this a chance.
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Old 04-04-11, 01:37 AM   #2
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I had to call a crisis hotline today. I was alone in my apartment because my boyfriend had work, so I tried to go to the mall to get my mind off things, but I kept almost crying while there and had to leave. I came home and knew I couldn't call my mom because she was busy, and she lives 12 hours away so I can't go see her. I started thinking about how my mom is getting old and how she is the only one I can talk to and I got terrified about what's going to happen when she is gone, and I started thinking that I just couldn't cope with that. I think I need serious help but I have no health insurance and don't know where to go. The crisis line was helpful though, and I think I might call them tomorrow to see if they know of any resources I can use. My life could be so great if I didn't have so much unfounded terror in it. :(
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Old 04-04-11, 02:59 AM   #3
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If your Mom wasn't around, what about your bf or someone else you love? just not the same? I know.

Glad the hotline could help. Sorry noone's responded to your post.
There are plenty of other ways to contribute to society, some without even having to deal with people that much.
You're 24 and have already scored two awesome jobs. Those are definitely above average, and must pay relatively decent. Right?

I don't know the cause of your anxiety. I know I feel anxious when it feels like I'm just waiting for something in my life to happen. But I have to wait. Only time will fix my problem. Not that I'm really just waiting. I am taking some action and living my life now.
I'm 25 and make $10/ hour. Single and lonely frequently.
Neither of us probably has it that bad.
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Old 04-05-11, 03:34 AM   #4
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Thanks for responding. I realized after freaking out for a while that I was actually having a reaction to pain medication I had been on. I had my wisdom teeth removed last week and I was taking percocet every 4 hours for 5 days and I quit taking them without tapering because my doctor didn't warn me that I might need to taper them. I have only felt anxiety that debilitating on a few other occasions, and medication was involved in those cases too. Guess I am a bit sensitive to medication. Anyway, I am feeling much better but there is always an underlying current of anxiety in the back of my mind. Thankfully, my anxiety is usually manageable, but I do fear situations like this one could happen at any moment. I feel like I was transported into another world for a few days, where not even sunshine and birds chirping could calm my nerves (both things that usually remind me that I’m alive and things are ok and that life is not a horror movie). I feel for people who have severe anxiety on a constant basis, I can't imagine how terrible that must be. I am still planning to pursue counseling in the future in hopes of avoiding any more episodes like this. I’m so glad to be feeling normal again :)
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