It took me a while to understand that It's my father that triggers me. My mom understands me, but only to a certain extent. Recently, I lost my job due to a co-worker who was manipulating me. He put on a good act, but I've been manipulated by the same type of person for the last 20 years. It took me a while to understand exactly where I am mentally. I was on edibles and mixed them with my prescribed medication. Everything was going fine, until I went on vacation and my mom and dad kicked me out of the house after cleaning my room and found my stash; that was on Day 1 of my supposed "Vacation". It was on a Saturday too, so they knew the bank was closed. I texted my brother to see if I could stay at his place, but I got barred from his place. I left the house with my work uniforms, but didn't have anywhere to go. I wandered around aimlessly until my younger brother called me. When he asked me where I was, I told him I was going to work to take a shower. He urged me to go to his house and when I told him I wasn't allowed to, he urged me even more. So I wound up at his place. Long story short, they allowed me back in the house, but only under the condition no more edibles. That's when the real **** started to happen.
Anyway, therapy Isn't for everyone. Sometimes, the problem is the ones who are closest to you. My dad has a tendency to see things in black and white. It's either hot or it's cold. I'm still having issues with my dad, but that's the price of "love". My dad has OCD tendencies and is a protestant Christian. My mom is also a protestant Christian. The first time I went on depression medication, it didn't work for me. I developed a bad drinking problem because I'm a high functioning individual. The second time I took depression medication, it worked. I even managed to gain weight and got up to 140 before the pandemic hit. I ran out of the meds, but just didn't refill them. Now, I'm back on them. I'm in the process of gaining weight again, but my mental health is much better. Couple weeks ago, I was at my lowest point. I'm currently in the process of bettering my life, but this is my very first post... so I hope it's time well spent.
Last edited by Tripwire Desire; 09-03-21 at 05:36 PM.