I sincerely hope that the alternatives to depression medication help all those who seek alternatives but I feel as if there is sometime to add to this forum.
One day my medication for depression seemed to stop working. So, I decided to take my medication every other day, instead of every day. That did not work. I was still depressed and my medication did not seem to be working. So I stopped taking my medication for one week. That did not work either. So I started doubling my medication, taking two a day instead of the prescribed one a day. That did not work either.
My depression was getting worse. Then one night I experienced a depression I had never known before. I was among people I knew when the walls literally began to close in on me. I felt trapped. I felt as if I was spiraling down and down like I had never experienced before. Even though there were people I could talk to I did not want to talk with anyone. In fact, I felt if I talked with someone and expressed what I was going through, that they would only say "Snap out of it. You are only feeling sorry for yourself!"
So there I sat. All alone. Desperate and afraid like I never had been before. Thoughts of suicide came to mind like they never had before. There is no way for me to express the desperation and detachment I felt that night.
Fortunately, a close friend happened to sit next to me and strike up a conversation. Somehow I had the courage to express a part of what was going on inside of me only to find he had done the same thing - changing his medication on his own like I had and ended up feeling the same feelings I was experiencing at that time. He made me promise not to listen to my voice of depression and to see my doctor the coming Monday. I promised and kept my promise.
Today I know my friend saved my life. And, never again will I mess with changing my medication for depression, or the amount of medication I am prescribed to take except under my doctor's supervision.