Hi, all. Not sure if this is the right board for this kind of post. If it's not then please could a mod move it to the right one. Thank you
I thought it would be a good idea to write down some of my problems and the ways that I've learnt to deal with them.
Originally this was going to be something I'd do privately, just for myself. That way if I ever started to feel really depressed again I would have a guide to help me through the hard times.
But I decided to post it here instead in the hope that some of you might want to add your own thoughts and observations. Hopefully this thread will allow us to help one another get better
So, what problems have you identified and how have you learnt to deal with them?
- Feeling like people are laughing at me, talking about me, criticising me. Accompanied by a general feeling of worthlessness and the desire to shut myself away.
- Remind myself that I'm just being paranoid. It sounds obvious but it's very easy to forget this and become convinced that people really are talking about me behind my back.
- Imagining confrontations with strangers, work colleagues, family members/Reliving past confrontations but imagining myself becoming more aggressive towards others.
Usually presents as me imagining getting into an argument with someone. The fantasy becomes so vivid that I feel tense and angry even after the fantasy has ended.
- Tiredness (they often present early in the morning) and stress.
It was suggested to me that my social anxiety could be brought on by a faulty "fight or flight" response. If this is true then perhaps these fantasies are related. My brain might perceive some kind of threat that doesn't really exist. As a result I'm unable to resolve this threat. Perhaps my mind creates these fantasies as a way of making the threat real so that it can
- Keep reminding myself that these fantasies are harmful to my state of mind.
- The involuntary twitching/flexing of the muscles in my neck and face. As the condition worsens it can develop into my entire head suddenly turning to the side or even muttering expletives.
- Thinking about past regrets and thinking about things I might say or do in the future that I'll regret.
- Medication (SSRIs)
- Shortness of breath, sweating, tight chest, nausea, feeling faint.
- Being in confined spaces (buses, trains, etc.), standing in queues, staying in one public place for too long.
There are also the more general feelings of depression: hopelessness, despair, loneliness, isolation, worthlessness,
etc.. With these I've found the only way to deal with them is to not think about them. I just try to put them to the back of my mind.
Medication has helped with a lot of my problems but I realise that it is not a permanent solution. Ideally, I'd like to be able to deal with all of my problems without meds but that's not something I want to rush in to.
By "Treatment" I'm referring to that which has helped me feel better. These "treatments" may not necessarily work for everyone. I am not a doctor or therapist, I have no training in either field. Anyone in crisis should seek the help of trained professionals.