I'm fasting. Well I'm going to do about 850 calories or try anyway. I need to clean myself up. I've been uncharacteristically indulgent and thoughtless about my overall wellness lately. So...
I took a really REALLY hot bath today (as hot as I could stand it knowing I wouldn't get scalded) and sat in it for like 1/2 hour. I threw some mustardy bath stuff in and fully ENJOYED the whole experience and it did me good. I spent good time there.
I just got in from 1 1/2 of intensive raking (my favorite sport btw, I love the repetitiveness, the sound of the leaves, but the being outside getting intensive exercise while ENJOYING the fall is irreplacable!). I've been quite sedentary lately, haven't liked that.
I then took a walk to the meadow behind my house and took a look at everything that's blooming, now that it is fall. (when I'm happy I AM one of the original genuine nature boys by the way, I live on 4 acres in the forest, in a pretty isolated area, ponds all around me: I don't see another soul).
So today I'm thinking that I'm just plain TIRED of being depressed as if it's my only choice.I'm going to think about some of these decisions I'm allowing myself to make lately. I'm going to be more thoughtful about spending my time more positively. I'm not going to allow myself to think so illy of myself.
And that's going to take some hard work but OK.