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Old 04-09-11, 09:49 PM   #11
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Its best to let them out with people you feel close to, or feel will understand and listen to you. Do not fear opening up to the world, there still exist some good people out there. We are just hard to find. Good people are an endangered species ya know ^^. Anyway, point is anytime you need to talk or vent, or just let it all out. Or even if you just want a few chuckles and laughs, we are all here for you. Our job is not to judge, but to listen. So sit back and just smile today, because you made a new friend. ME!
I am afraid to open up really, didn't plan to. I do fear the world, trust me, you would too. Found this board by accident, was looking for something else, thought this was it. I was actually surprized to see some of these posts here, sometimes you forget that other people have problems too. Hard to see past you own misery sometimes. I can feel for many of the people here, I admire thier couage just to post thier feelings.

Why are you here? I have been so busy whining that I forgot to ask.
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Old 04-10-11, 10:05 AM   #12
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Hello... are you okay?
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Old 04-10-11, 12:37 PM   #13
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Truth be told, I am here because I feel, I needed to be here. I look on the news, and I see and read in the paper about suicide cases, about people being bullied, and just not being able to take it anymore. And I say to myself, all they need is a friend. Someone to talk to, someone to exchange words with. Someone in their life to make one small difference. And if I cna be that person, if I can just save one person from a bad fate, or take the pain away from somebody. I feel its my duty, more or so, I feel I have to. I dont mind making friends, and I dont mind people opening up to me. I love to be a good friend people can turn to. Its why I selected this name. Lightsworn. Sworn to be the light in peoples lives, when there is darkness.
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Old 04-10-11, 12:49 PM   #14
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hello pixystyx. I read your posts. I can understand what you have been through. Want to give you hugs
I hope my mind will be in a better condition tomorrow, and i will write more.
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Old 04-10-11, 01:28 PM   #15
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Truth be told, I am here because I feel, I needed to be here. I look on the news, and I see and read in the paper about suicide cases, about people being bullied, and just not being able to take it anymore. And I say to myself, all they need is a friend. Someone to talk to, someone to exchange words with. Someone in their life to make one small difference. And if I cna be that person, if I can just save one person from a bad fate, or take the pain away from somebody. I feel its my duty, more or so, I feel I have to. I dont mind making friends, and I dont mind people opening up to me. I love to be a good friend people can turn to. Its why I selected this name. Lightsworn. Sworn to be the light in peoples lives, when there is darkness.
Sometimes you do need a friend, I guess that is true. Sometimes a friend you can't see is better. Sometimes you can't take it anymore. When all you have is the pain inside, the total dispair. When there are no more tears, nothing but empty. People can be so mean, can hurt you so bad.. You see other people who don't have the problems you do, and you ask why. You feel alone, your world shrinks around you. My world has become me and 4 people. None of whom I can really talk to. Alone in a sea of strangers.
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Old 04-10-11, 01:57 PM   #16
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You become afraid to talk, afraid to let the feelings out, wanting the pain to end. Ashamed of what you have become.
Last night you made me cry, no one has been nice to me in a long time. I honestly did not end up here looking for help, I was looking for ideas, please don't think I am a monster or something.I am sorry.
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Old 04-10-11, 02:07 PM   #17
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hello pixystyx. I read your posts. I can understand what you have been through. Want to give you hugs
I hope my mind will be in a better condition tomorrow, and i will write more.
Hi. Thank you. I hope you feel better too. please take care of yourself. pixy
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Old 04-10-11, 02:07 PM   #18
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pixystyx, you are not a monster. many of us found this site by accident looking for something else,.....in many cases a way to end things. instead we found ttl and some help to pull us out of the darkness and a little hope instead. i can only pray that would be the case for you, a pleasant surprise of hope instead of pain.
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Old 04-10-11, 04:46 PM   #19
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Pixy-

I am not sure how long it has been since you have "freed" yourself from your mother's negative influence, but know some day you will feel better. I only say this, because I too, suffered from my parents being hateful towards me. I never could see how beautiful/good of a person I was. I am now 27, and minus a month at the age of 21, it has been 9 years since I was around that kind of treatment.

My father was always very hard on me, and I even almost married a man I hated because "I could never find anyone else that would love me and my son" He had me convinced i was ugly and no man would ever want "us" This was when my son was around 1, and he is going on five now.

I am sorry for hijacking your post, but I want you to know that it is just now in life that I am finally not hurting like I once was. I am finally seeing myself in a less than loser light, and I am finally noticing that it was almost pure jealousy coming from my step mother. Keep your chin up and when you are ready, feel free to vent. I promise to not write a novel response next time as well. :)
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Pixy -

I have read your posts, and I want to let you know I care. Many of us have come from backgrounds like yours, and we hurt with you.

The only thing that helps is time, counseling, and perspective. I went through several "healing" groups to make peace with my past, and the greatest healing came from the words of those who walked the path with me.

We are here for you ... we care.

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