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Old 08-16-10, 06:06 PM   #1
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Its taken me a long time to make this thread, about 2 weeks I think.

The reason I didn't want to write it is because most people on here know I was abused for a short time before, and I guess I didn't want to admit that I had let it happen again.

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I had been seeing this guy, for only abouttt a week before this all started. Before we got close I thought he was the sweetest guy alive, but he didn't appear to like me. So I thought that was it and tried to forget it. However he started to show an interest and we started going out. Shortly after we were together fairly late at night and we got into a petty argument and he punched me. I didn't even think that much of it at the time. I just came home cried and got over it thinking it was a one off. Turned out it wasn't and things have only got worse over the last few days. I managed to tell a close friend but made her swear not to tell anyone, and she hasn't.

I have been getting really awful pains in my stomach, which I think are caused by him and I want to go and make sure everything is ok but I don't want to have to explain how it happened.

I know you may all think that I should know by now that telling someone is the best thing to do, but last time I had to go through telling my family this stuff was hell, it caused so much stress and upset. Although I know that I should tell someone, for me to tell them this kinda thing has happened all over again will be so hard. Also they will think I have done something stupid to let this happen twice to. Maybe I have? Don't think so but maybe.

I can never get my point across well in posts. But I tried :/

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i don't really get it, sexual abuse or he punched u in the stomach?
either way, HE did something he shouldn't have.
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Old 08-16-10, 08:42 PM   #3
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Noo not sexual abuse, I just meant i should have learnt from before anywayss ! ... And yeah he did.
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Old 08-16-10, 08:54 PM   #4
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that's awful :(
so what's going on with him now?
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Old 08-16-10, 08:57 PM   #5
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Its my fault, I should get the guts and tell someone, its just hard to do it all over again. And now I havn't seen him in a couple of days, and the last time I did was the worst. I am trying to just keep away from him but its hard, he seems to be around alot. x
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jenny, u need to get help from somewhere. playing it cool & acting like everything was OK before u felt better before didn't seem to do much good. people should understand if u still have problems from that, that u were trying to be OK, but u aren't. it's nothing to be embarrassed about. u were the victim, and u shouldn't feel like it's your fault if it still bothers u.
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jenny, u need to get help from somewhere. playing it cool & acting like everything was OK before u felt better before didn't seem to do much good. people should understand if u still have problems from that, that u were trying to be OK, but u aren't. it's nothing to be embarrassed about. u were the victim, and u shouldn't feel like it's your fault if it still bothers u.

Its hard. I am trying soo soo hard to get over everything that happened before, but I'm afraid if I tell someone about this it will bring everything back. It shouldn't bother me, what happened before probably still bothers me more than this is now, and thats stupid, I just cant seem to help it ! I do want to tell someone, I just dont want to say this and end up digging up the past with it. x
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it isn't stupid that it bothers u now, but i can understand why u don't want to bring it up again. may i ask, is it the cause of your depression & all, or did u feel that way before it happened?
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No, I was like this long before it happened, but this has caused things to get much much worse, since then I have had anxiety and flash back/ night mares and arghh the more I think about it the more I ever regret letting it happen.
Even the subject is digging up what happened with my dad.x
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i'm sorry, jenny. :(
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