Well you don't have social anxiety on this site so that's a good thing. :)
I deal with the same stuff too and I've learned that it's really situational anxiety. It's not like I'm a major fuck up or anything. There are things in my life like no job at the moment, running out of money, dealing with my dark side, hard relationships, loneliness etc that are CAUSING myself to feel like I'm unraveling. Not the other way around (don't know if that makes sense to you).
You're going on Friday to see the counselor again, that's good. I hope it's a person you can trust. I go tomorrow night and I'm trying to get psychologically prepared for it and keep my head up until then.
Thanks for posting and by the way I love your photos. I have a couple I want to put up here but I'm just a big spaz when it comes to that!