I'm so sick of this damn family. THey really expect me to put up with abuse and truely believe its my fault. Fuck this christianity shit they throw at me how could a wholesome loving creator expect women to just shutup and put up?
My grandmother and i had a talk and she says it is my fault how my father treated me cause I angered him. WHAT THE FUCK
She also says he wasn't a bad dad because he was raised rigid so it's not his fault and cause he thought he was a good dad.
Dammit it I'm going to either kill myself or disown them.
I dont give a shit anymore all i need is their money thats all. fuck what they believe fuck what they say.
It' s not my damn fault but every fucking person just loooves to say oh poor him bad you its your fault it couldnt be the man.
i' so sick of this shit this damn family i should have NEVER left ym uni to go to community-worst decision ever, living at home is hell.
It's either shutup and put up with his crap cause it snot his fault his parents were eman poor him but nope you amde him made oh shouldnt have done that its his fault.
I'm so damn fucking tired of this shit i just want to escape
I wishing i had a real family a normal one. I should have never been born.
Every fucking mistake i do is criticized and never let go. My mom told my grandma i said "fuck" and she has never let it go since.
I seriosuly want to die-I'm already planning suicide. I have nothing to live for im too stupid to reach my gaols and I'm stuck in this fucking family who believes all my emotional abuse was my fault cause i was a fucking normal teenager who tlaked back. i never did fucking drugs never had sex never drank never stole the car but nope its my fault my DMN FUCKING FAULT
Fuck this shit and ill say fuck as much as i damn well please
I shouldnt be alive. Those bitches should have never recreated.
I dont belong here i dont belong anywhere never have never will-i just hope i succeed in leaving this damn planet

I can only say that I know how it feels for everything to be 'your fault'... take a couple of good deep breaths, and if you have a pet, it might help to go and stroke it, that's always really relaxing. (((hugs))) Sending good thoughts your way.

It's bizarre how similar your family sounds in comparison to mine. My father was Mr. All-Powerful-Self-Righteous-Christian-Jerk-Face-With-a-Shitload-of-Excuses too. (Wow, one hell of a title!) My mother and sister were physically abused when they opposed him, because the Old Testament says that women are inferior to men and must submit to their husbands and fathers regardless of the situation. "Grr! I'm gonna beat you up in the name of The Lord!" Uh-oh! My bullshit-o-meter is going off!

If you're being physically abused, I don't need to tell you to get out of that hell hole. However, (and I don't mean to belittle your problems; emotional abuse is often just as bad, if not worse, than physical) if not, it would be to your benefit to remain in your current home for just a little while longer. You're mature, and you're strong. I'm confident that you can do it. After all, it's extremely difficult for young adults to support themselves in today's economy, and they often run into trouble with the, "Oh, I'll just split an apartment with my friends!" idea.

Despite your decisions, of course, you're always free to rant to us!
I hope this helps at least a little bit. Good luck.

Would you feel comfortable stating exactly what sort of abuse is going on? You frequently say your father abuses you horribly, and you hate him. Would you feel comfortable giving a hint at what form this abuse takes? I.e. physical, sexual, psychological, etc...