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Old 01-19-10, 09:19 PM   #1
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I have never told anyone this, but my dad is not as perfect as everyone says he is. Don't get me wrong, I love him with all my heart, but growing up he used to get very, very angry. People think just because I have never been in a fight that I can't take a hit, but I know I can because I have. I probably deserved it since I didn't to do well in school and didn't clean the house. He had a terrible childhood, so I think that he did really good compared to that. He would beat my head against the wall until I passed out and then I would come to, to him kicking me in the stomach. My family doesn't talk about that and according to him he was father of the century. In a way he was, except for the anger issues. Every time he would beat me I would wet myself. It was very embarrassing being 17 and wetting yourself. I actually did much better considering when I was little, all he had to do was look over his glasses and I would wet myself, and then I just got in trouble again. He always felt bad after the fact and would sit me on his lap (even though I had wet pants) and explain to me why I shouldn't do it again. Then he would tell me to clean up and he would give me ice for the swelling, or lotion for the welts. I have always tried to forget those times because other than that he was a great father.
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I have never told anyone this, but my dad is not as perfect as everyone says he is. Don't get me wrong, I love him with all my heart, but growing up he used to get very, very angry. People think just because I have never been in a fight that I can't take a hit, but I know I can because I have. I probably deserved it since I didn't to do well in school and didn't clean the house. He had a terrible childhood, so I think that he did really good compared to that. He would beat my head against the wall until I passed out and then I would come to, to him kicking me in the stomach. My family doesn't talk about that and according to him he was father of the century. In a way he was, except for the anger issues. Every time he would beat me I would wet myself. It was very embarrassing being 17 and wetting yourself. I actually did much better considering when I was little, all he had to do was look over his glasses and I would wet myself, and then I just got in trouble again. He always felt bad after the fact and would sit me on his lap (even though I had wet pants) and explain to me why I shouldn't do it again. Then he would tell me to clean up and he would give me ice for the swelling, or lotion for the welts. I have always tried to forget those times because other than that he was a great father.
Sick. That doesn't seem like the father of the year to me.
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Old 01-19-10, 09:43 PM   #3
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Thank You LostandConfused for listening. I know it was wrong of him. I hate blaming someone else for my problems, but he's probably the reason I started self hurting. I knew that I could handle the pain. When he hurt me I felt physically numb, and when I hurt myself, I didn't feel so tormented. I felt focused.
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you got every right to blame him for at least some of it. Thats terrible memories for a child especially a girl! your handling it really well lane. Keep strong, i feel for you.
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you got every right to blame him for at least some of it. Thats terrible memories for a child especially a girl! your handling it really well lane. Keep strong, i feel for you.
Thank you so much StrutsUK. I feel better having gotten this off my chest.
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Oh wow Lane, I can't even imagine what that must have been like... I'm so sorry.
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i'm glad talking about it helps u feel better.
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It's not so bad when you tell yourself it was your fault and you deserved it right? I don't know I am really screwed up when it comes to stuff like this. He has never laid a hand to me since I was 18 because I started working at the same place as he did and he was very proud of me for being such a hard worker, But I think that's because I stayed at work most of the time and worked 20 hour work days sometimes and 60 hour work weeks. It was a crappy job, but I loved it, cause I was able to pay him rent and go out when things looked like they were starting to get hairy.
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u finally got to move out, though?
do u still see him a lot?
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When I was 20 I moved in to my own apartment and that is when things got really bad for me because I felt alone. He talked me into moving back in and things were great. I guess because he knew I could leave. He seems to have forgotten all about it so I try to as well. I have since moved in with my boyfriend which at first really disappointed him, but now he is proud of me. I see him all the time. He never shows anger like that again.
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