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Old 04-26-07, 11:33 PM   #1
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My sisters ex bf who is one of my best friends started talkign to me today and he sorta knows about my past.

So we started talking and I told him a little about what happened. Then I stopped because I started to feel bad. I told him enough was enough I coudlnt talk about it anymore. He accepted that and we talked about other things for awhile.

I realized the feeling I had when I was talking about the past didnt go away. I tried to block it and just think happy but it wasnt working. Now I just feel like crap. I am not going to be able to sleep even with sleeping pills because right when I close my eyes Im goign to replay my past and thats not goign to allow me to sleep.


I want to block this feeling it isnt a good one. My mind just wont block it.

I need to get rid of this horrible feeling and block the past again. I never should have brought it up again
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Old 04-26-07, 11:41 PM   #2
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Punk... maybe you need to work through your past like I am... I blocked it and locked it away... and it nearly drove me insane..... :( I am sorry you feel bad... I really am...
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He is trying to help me work through the past. I cant help but block it out. I cant face it Its just not good
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Well my past aint good either... but I am going to face it head on and fight it with all I got... and I hope one day to subdue it.. and not have to repress it anymore..... it will be better in the long run to deal with the past...
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Yeah in the long run it will be better to deal with the past but right now I just cant not with the trip to FL and stuff.

I dont have enough fight in me to fight it right now
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Well I really dont know what to say then... :S you do need to confront it some time though... the sooner the better..
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I know I do and thats scary. Im tired of hurting like this but I need to confront the past and I dont know how and its weird I cant explain
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Well I confront it by talking about it... sharing it... Tohru really helped me with confronting my past.... you really just need a good person to listen to you and talk about it... someone you can trust.
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I dont understand it. Talking should help so why is it making me worse?

I have alot of great people I can trust I just dont know how to talk without getting hurt
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It hurts like hell to share... but it also helps.... sharing never.. ever felt good for me until afterwards.... but afterwards.. it did feel good... a little better at least..
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