My sisters ex bf who is one of my best friends started talkign to me today and he sorta knows about my past.
So we started talking and I told him a little about what happened. Then I stopped because I started to feel bad. I told him enough was enough I coudlnt talk about it anymore. He accepted that and we talked about other things for awhile.
I realized the feeling I had when I was talking about the past didnt go away. I tried to block it and just think happy but it wasnt working. Now I just feel like crap. I am not going to be able to sleep even with sleeping pills because right when I close my eyes Im goign to replay my past and thats not goign to allow me to sleep.
I want to block this feeling it isnt a good one. My mind just wont block it.
I need to get rid of this horrible feeling and block the past again. I never should have brought it up again