Depression took away from me the ability to enjoy life.

My Childhood.
My Soul.
My once very bright view of nice future.

My ability to have a high level happy/excited reaction, to respond in social settings to the expected levels of excitement. It's left me feeling like I'm less of a top quality person because I can't go high enough.

My current marriage, my self esteem, friendships and family, another relationship years ago that was the best thing to happen to me, my ability to have fun, and even my health in some ways.

Depression has taken away who i used to be and turned me into a cold hearted monster that cant see any brightness in life.

Depression has taken the good out of me.
My smile
My laughter
My ambition
My warm heart
My friends
My family
My will to be alive

I am always dark.
I dont talk to people.
I dont go anywhere.
I dont have any motivation for anything.

My mind has gone even more crazy busy with stupid fucking thoughts that is not supposed to be there. I struggle sleeping, tossing and turning, never getting enough sleep.

It is currently taking away my relationship and taking its toll on my very very few friends.

Depression is killing me slowly, it is driving me to places i dont know how to get out of...

It took away too many years of my life, too much time.

But I find it helpful to remember that there’s still more time, more time to change, and more time to improve.