his depression is lifting, leaving him feeling numb

heartfilledlies · 02-23-2010, 11:10 PM

i hate him feeling like this. hes suffering from that miserable numbness we all no. his doctors have lowered his meds, which i agree with bc it was helping with his anxiety by forcing him into depression. hes seeing a private therapist but now he has to stop seeing her, if he stays with her he'll have to pay. but the therapist he had b4 that wasnt that great, put him on a session every other week, which doesnt or didnt make any sense. hes battling depression, which is forcing him to face severe anxiety as its lifting, they lower his meds, and then they make it every other week for a session. i dont understand this. and on top of it, this numbness cuases him to be distant, and that puts extra stress on our relationship. hes putting more and more things off for a longer period of time, hes having trouble sticking to a normal sleep schedule, he falls asleep at 5 or 6 in the morning and sleeps intil 4 or 5 n the afternoon, hes playing his xbox more, hes getting more emotional, and on top of all that, hesanxious about me coming, and with his severe anxiety slowly coming bk, it makes it all worse. at the same time, im stressed and nervous about coming, taking hell from my mom, trying to comfort him bc its the onli thing that makes me feel better, knowing ill always be there for him even when he doesnt feel it, that just makes me try harder.
i just love him so much, i hate to see him suffering like this. feeling that numbness, its so miserable its painful, and theres nothing i can do, but sit here infront of my webcam and tellhim over and over that i love him, bc thats wat he does for me in my time of need. i no he'll get better and get threw this. i just wish he didnt have to suffer....