Well, you don't need to know who this guy is anyway. He should mind his own business. It is very disrespectful of him to invade your life like that.

Most of the time it is a good thing to try and become more active. But it is a shame your legs are reacting in such a way. Aren't there any physiotherapists or personal trainers who have knowledge of such problems?

Hi Angie, I'm a late-comer to the thread and I don't know a great deal about the details of your medical troubles. I read your thread. Nobody but you knows exactly the pain and life stopping level of misery you are in, and I'm sorry to hear that it's so bad. I don't have your situation so I can only offer my support instead of shared experience.

I want to offer a thought/topic that could be of use as an option for your needs. I'm more and more interested in the issue of how our gut health can really affect everyday life and I'm finding information that sounds good through internet research. There's a lot of stuff that touches on things but not enough to be of much use but occasionally I find something that looks more usefult. This webpage and the links on it or the next one and maybe the doctors who are doing the research featured in it could be a direction that would give a glimmer of hope.

How Your Microbiome Controls Your Health
List of Fermented Foods & Vegetables that Can Heal Your Gut

Thanks for the responses guys.

I was more concerned about my roommate saying all of those things than anything though. I have been to everyone under the sun about my problem and nothing.

As far as the micro biome you are correct and I am aware of that. I still had issues when it was in check.

My life feels so hopeless. I am doing a little more now to take care of myself but it virtually does nothing because I am in the same circumstances.

The roommate thing was just another example of crazy things that pile on and seem to just happen to me. As a matter of fact many people in my lifetime have commented on things that happen to me with "Only you." I think the roommate thing that happened just reiterates in mind "How the fuck did I get here to this point in my life."

Things just keep getting worse. It is abundantly clear that therapy does not work for me. I have no hope no motivation....severe self neglect and I just feel like I do not care. I started to have some mental energy to do small things and my therapist said I am not any better than last March and that I smell. I know that a therapist is suppose to challenge however the little energy I had to start doing anything is completely gone now.

I can't do this. I wish I could just kill myself.

The only other option out of all my problems is to end my life. There are too many problems and this is the worst I have ever been in my entire life. I cannot escape all of these problems. I just want to die.

Wow, those comments your therapist made sound awful. You should express your frustration and feelings, just get it off your chest. You have every right to do so. And hopefully this situation will get better.

That is a good suggestion FromTheHeart.

I just think therapy is not for me. I have been seeing her since last March and I am no better. I have no motivation to do the work. This is not the first therapist who expressed frustration because I was getting no better. Therapy is not for me I am realizing. There are too many problems and I guess I do not want to see my life any differently because it so miserable no matter where I turn. I never dreamed it could get this bad.