The weight of this depression and medical problems are just too much for me to bear. Those that know always say I am so strong to keep going. Well, I am non-functioning; I would not exactly call that strong in mind. I have been non-functioning going on 8 to 9 months. I don't want to be "strong" anymore. I don't want this unfair life anymore. There is no hope and there is no help for me.
I look at my problems and listen to people complain about the most trivial crap. I would give my life savings for their problems.
The joy and light have been gone for quite some time.