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Old 01-01-17, 09:47 AM   #1
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Ever felt that way? Like you are not actually needed anywhere? I am kinda feeling like that.Its like i dont exist really. People move on from me so fucking easily, while i am left in pieces. My list of friends has shrunk enough that i feel like i am actually capable of committing suicide. Everyones life bloomed when they left me. I only have 1 close friend and my love for her was so strong that i shouldnt have even dared to think of suicide, yet i attempted it. BUt i dont deserve her, i created my own world, that world sucks. I lost everyone but her. So far only thing thats kept me alive is thought of the pain i would cause to people if i died. Now there is just that one person that i think would miss me and i think i cant hold it anymore for her.

New year, new me bullshit is irritating me, nothing ever changed no matter how much i wished things got better they just got worse. Now i am alone in my room, left in shambles coz of others, or thats what i would say to myself. Truth is, its all my fault, i am gonna die of my own hand, coz i ruined my life....
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Sorry your feeling down. Hopefully things will get better.
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I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I hope it gets better for you.
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Dimitrije I'm sorry to hear you are feeling so bad! Some times in life are very much alone. How are you doing with your school program? I'm sorry I have been away from hearing news for a while.
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I am doing bad. It was my birthday few days ago and it was just a nice reminder how alone i am. Got few happy birthday wishes via texts, no one cared enough to congratulate me irl, including my bestie, no gifts nothing. On that day, my birthday i winded up in hospital for suicide attempt, and as far as my thoughts go nothing changed for better since then, i just lost few friends, lost some weight ( thats luckily one good thing), am still depressed even though i am on meds and i dont know.... I am just messed up, shy, quiet, crazy person that people dont like.
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