I just can't handle my life any more
Theres nothing good about my life everyday things get worse for me, I'm only 25 years old and need to go on dialysis because of my weak kidneys. I just want to die naturally and not go on dialysis, and just live my life for the couple of years I would have left with out it. My family on the other hand is tryin to push me forward and get me on dialysis because they just can't let go of me yet. I really have no reason to live anymore, and being hooked up to a machine just to live for a few more years seams utterly pointless to me as that's not living at all and will be painfull. I'll never have a wife and kids, hell I'll never even have a girl friend, no one wants to go out with a man that's on dialysis. My whole life i've allways have had this fealling that i would die young, it has never really bother me only my friends and family. Why can't they let go of me? Can't they understand I just want to rest. If there is a afterlife then I'll go on to it, if not owell there is nothing i need to do anymore with my life, Don't get me wrong I would never kill myself, but I don't see the point on carrying on my life if i need to be hooked up to a machine just to live. It would be differnt if i had a wife and or kids that depended on me but if i were to die today no one would notice intill my next doctors appointment. What I'm trying to ask i guess is why should one live a life of pain just so he isn't dead to others.
PLEASE NO RELIGIOUS SHIT I HAVE MY OWN FIRM BELIEFS AND DON'T NEED TO HEAR ANY SHIT ABOUT WHAT YOU THINK IS GOD OR THE RIGHT RELIGON