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Old 03-17-17, 12:16 PM   #1
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Its just that I don't think I should live anymore. I don't deserve to. My parents have given me everything and in return I have given them nothing but a crappy person. So I don't think I deserve to live.
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Old 03-17-17, 04:32 PM   #2
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Its just that I don't think I should live anymore. I don't deserve to. My parents have given me everything and in return I have given them nothing but a crappy person. So I don't think I deserve to live.
If I may ask, what makes you think you are a crappy person? I don't think you are.
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Old 03-19-17, 07:17 AM   #3
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Hi enddays. It's just that since ever all I have done is be a burden on my parents or for that matter everyone around me. Like everyone around me is trying to get rid of me. That just my existence is bothering them. I don't know if you know the feeling of being alone in a room full of people.
PS you don't think I am a crappy person because you don't know me. No offence.
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Hi enddays. It's just that since ever all I have done is be a burden on my parents or for that matter everyone around me. Like everyone around me is trying to get rid of me. That just my existence is bothering them. I don't know if you know the feeling of being alone in a room full of people.
PS you don't think I am a crappy person because you don't know me. No offence.
No offence taken, I don't kmow you therefore you are not a crappy person to me. I know the feeling of being alone, no, not alone but by myself. I actually love to be by myself. If someone tries to get rid of you this someomeone has to commit a crime. The only way. Is this what is happening?
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Old 03-20-17, 07:50 AM   #5
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No offence taken, I don't kmow you therefore you are not a crappy person to me. I know the feeling of being alone, no, not alone but by myself. I actually love to be by myself. If someone tries to get rid of you this someomeone has to commit a crime. The only way. Is this what is happening?
Hi Enddays. You amuse me. And that's a good thing , you know.
And no that's not what's happening. But sometimes people around you behave so senselessly and so rudely that no matter his much you pretend that you don't care, at the end of the day you curl up in your bed and cry your eyes out. To be really honest ,I sometimes find it difficult to decide whether I should kill myself or the people around me.
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Old 03-20-17, 04:02 PM   #6
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Hi Enddays. You amuse me. And that's a good thing , you know.
And no that's not what's happening. But sometimes people around you behave so senselessly and so rudely that no matter his much you pretend that you don't care, at the end of the day you curl up in your bed and cry your eyes out. To be really honest ,I sometimes find it difficult to decide whether I should kill myself or the people around me.
Well, you kill the people around you and you commit a crime. You kill yourself and you don't.
You se, at least I could cheer you up a bit and this makes me very proud. If I can at least give some positive feeling to someone then I can say I achieved something. Well, Lost45, the ent of the road is 45 yards to the left and 67 to the right, which direction do you choose?
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Well, you kill the people around you and you commit a crime. You kill yourself and you don't.
You se, at least I could cheer you up a bit and this makes me very proud. If I can at least give some positive feeling to someone then I can say I achieved something. Well, Lost45, the ent of the road is 45 yards to the left and 67 to the right, which direction do you choose?
Dear Enddays, I am really glad that you replied to my thread. Now I have a little something else to think about. Thanks a ton. I hope everything turns out good for you. PS I read your thread too.
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Dear Enddays, I am really glad that you replied to my thread. Now I have a little something else to think about. Thanks a ton. I hope everything turns out good for you. PS I read your thread too.
Good, I am really glad to read this. You see, what makes me wonder is whether your death achieves anything (apart from your own eternal peace) or the death of the ones who annoy you.
I feel the same, honestly, although, there are not may people I absolute hate, just a minority really. I know my death will give me eternal peace, wherever that may be. I know it is the thnking which keeps us alive ...
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Good, I am really glad to read this. You see, what makes me wonder is whether your death achieves anything (apart from your own eternal peace) or the death of the ones who annoy you.
I feel the same, honestly, although, there are not may people I absolute hate, just a minority really. I know my death will give me eternal peace, wherever that may be. I know it is the thnking which keeps us alive ...
I completely agree Enddays. Its the mind that is everything. I think that it holds the key to creating and destroying ourselves. But to be honest, it destroys us most of the time.
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Yep, if I don't think and just act I am OK, but if I think (even about the most ridiclious smallest thing) I get wound up and then I get sort of upset and sad and detached from anything around me. This then gets to the point where I feel I can't take anymore.
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