I have lost the will to live. For 10 years now I've battled severe anxiety and now coupled with substance abuse, I have fallen into a deep depression. I don't know what to do. About 6 months ago I confided in some people and they never once on their own initiated contact my way. I got upset about it and then they proceeded to give me the silent treatment. Has made me feel even worse about things. I know my family would be devastated but it sucks to have to feel like the only reason to live is so others wont be hurt when i hurt daily. I lost faith in people years ago when i experienced severe panic disorder my last 1.5 years in high school. Now ive lost faith again. Why are people so mean? Why has life been so unfair to me? These questions have me wanting to check out for good.