The title says it all! I am 19 year old guy and i am ugly as fuck and this ruined my whole fucking life! Honestly guys, i have the worst physical appearance that you can ever imagine... i feel terrible about that and i can't do anything about it...so i am destined to suffer in my whole future life as i did until now. I am writing this shit while tears are falling from my eyes...i am sooo depressed and can't live like this anymore... Let me take this from the start.
Firstly, it's a fact that i am ugly...i am not exxagerating or trying to seek any attention or something. I am disgustingly ugly...I am so fucking short, 5’4, with a slim & weak body and I have a small & childlike face, small head, as well as poor eyesight. I literally look like a fucking 10 year old ugly boy. Seriously, I mean it, my eyes are tiny and my nose & mouth the same. Not only I have a small features but also I am very ugly, my face is flat and tiny with horrible structure. I never had a girlfriend and I would never have because I am so fucking short, weak and I look like a fucking kid and have nothing in common with the men that women want. Seriously now, i don't blame girls for that... if i was a girl i wouldn't want to do anything with that little ugly guy nomatter how good his personality is. I really get that!
Don't waste your time telling me all the bullshits about ''you are not that bad'' and that ''appearance is not important, personality matters''. All these are shits! And anyone who believes them is naive and fucking idiot! So shut the fuck up! This is how the society works now! If you are unattractive you can't have the same chances as other people do.
Can't have a girlfriend, can't get the girl you like to feel anything for you, and even i don't go out to have any fun because i am so embarrassed when other people see how ugly i am and i locked myself in my fucking room away from everyone becoming an introvert, while all other people of my age party and enjoy life!
This makes me miserable...depressed...suicidal. I pissed of when i see other people walking happily around because it reminds me that i would never be able to enjoy any similar happiness as they do. I can't look myself in the mirror...when i do i fell down in tears, and feel horrible about my ugliness. I feel so sad that i have no confidence to do anything and feel ashamed. Added to this, i feel even worse when i see myself in pics next to other average and good looking people. I just can't get the life i want because my physical appearance restrict me. This awful...unfair
I personally believe that i wouldn't be depressed if i didn't look that bad...because i like life but i can't enjoy it because of this...and i just can't do anything about it...and this makes me depressed because i only know that i have one life...but still can't find any happiness..
Eventhough i love life I want to end this life, because i am unable to enjoy it as i want because of my ugliness!
I don't know if you understand this. But this is how i feel and that makes me so sad and miserable.
I don't know why i continue to live in this life as i never felt happy and never will!
I just wanted to be that fucking normal, average man like the other 98% of people of my age. But i am not...so i suffer and live in despair!