This is a discussion on my problem within the Suicide Forum forums, part of the Depression category; i have a plan, i have a motive (obviously), and i want to do it so bad. i want to ...
i have a plan, i have a motive (obviously), and i want to do it so bad. i want to die! but something is telling me to wait for someone to give me something to live for. but i am about to give up on waiting.
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i hate the world
i hate time
i hate my name
it's all the same
i hate life
and everything in it
but no matter what i do
i will always love you
I'm sorry that you're in so much pain. :( I know life can get awful at times, but it will pass. You still have so much yet to experience in life, and it does get easier.
What's going on now that has you so down?
(I have to call it a night very soon, but I should be around tomorrow if you need to talk)
things have just been very difficult lately. i have actually been wanting to do this for a while but i had to weaken the blow for my friends so i have been becoming more distant and calling them things that hurts them deep down. i hope it works
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i hate the world
i hate time
i hate my name
it's all the same
i hate life
and everything in it
but no matter what i do
i will always love you
Don't burn your bridges, things can seem difficult now, but you always need friends. There's so much to live for - love, family, travel, new experiences, meeting new people, finding/creating your dream job, learning what the future holds. There's so much ahead for you still, and you have the power to give yourself the life you want! Please don't do anything that will jeopardize your future.
What things specifically have been difficult for you lately?
my best friend, for one, decided to tell our high school counselor about my cutting problems. and it is school policy that if you self harm they have to tell your parents. i am not looking forward to that phone call.
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i hate the world
i hate time
i hate my name
it's all the same
i hate life
and everything in it
but no matter what i do
i will always love you
Why is that? What do you think will happen when you talk to your parents? I think that conversation would lead to getting you some help that would make you feel better.
Oh no, I'm so sorry he reacted that way. I can totally understand why you'd be hurt by what he said. Depression is something that's difficult for a lot of people to understand, and sometimes people can be really dismissive of how you're feeling. I've experienced similar attitudes from people, and it really does suck. :(
Was your mother any more understanding? Have you ever seen a therapist before? If not, it might be a good idea, especially if your parents aren't helping/listening.
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