So I know I haven't been around her a lot lately, that's because I've been very busy trying to sort things out.
I've been working on this for a year at least, perhaps longer. I've been sent from the general practicioner, to the therapist, to a professional psychologist, to a psychiatrist and only when I spoke to the psychiatrist things began to work out.
Turns out I suffered from hallucinations and misperceptions. After discussing the pros and cons, we eventually decided that it was for the best to get medicine. I'm not on a low dosis of Olanzapine since a bit longer than a week ago and nearly everything is better.
At first, I was dealing with headaches and mocking voices that said the medicine didn't work, but that gradualy changed. The voices slowly disappeared and the headaches seized.
There are still some moments of stress in my life and I think people may be following me, but it's not interfering with my life anymore. No voices telling me how disgusting I am. There's just me and my life at last :)
I thought I'd share this because I know some people don't want to get out and go to seek help. They think it's not worth it... well I thought the same! Even had the voices telling me I wasn't worth anyone's time, but it gets so much better! It really helps! It may take some time, but you gotta sit through that and go for it.
You're all worth the time and effort and things will get better :)