Its been some time now since my sexual abuse started and ended. I just can't seem to get passed it... I thought that coming out and being open about it would do me better. Instead being called a liar. Being treated differently as if it was my fault. I used to blame myself, now i don't. But i do still think i could have done something. I have people asking me did i enjoy it. Wtf? Im getting lost and in a bad way. Its been a while since I've felt this low. Repressing these feelings was how i dealt with it. Now people know, its changed everything
When your try you best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you cant sleep
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you