It's been years since I've harmed myself. But being left heartbroken, with no explanation triggered me to harm myself. I couldn't settle myself down and had to do something to take away some of the pain. Plus, I also felt like I needed to punish myself for being such an idiot and trusting this guy, and then taking him back after he broke me trust.
I hate myself so much right now. I hate what I put myself through. I hate that I'm not stronger. And I hate that time and time again I get taken advantage of, used, walked all over and taken for granted.